Question
by a Dharma friend:
“When
you are at home or walking around the village or somewhere and you see and feel
evil impulses in your mind, do you feel regret or disliking that they arose?”
My answer:
“When I see evil impulses in my mind
I am aware of their occurrence and I let them come and go by themselves. I
change the focus from them to something else that I am doing at the moment, be
it Nembutsu or watching a movie, working, etc, and by simply leaving them
alone. I don't give them attention because that would make them grow even more,
and I cannot solve them by feeling regret or by disliking them.
It is useless to dislike thoughts
and feelings. If I focus on them with dislike or regret then I empower them, so
I do not do that. After I instantly realize their appearance, I simply leave
them alone. I do not take them seriously. Thoughts and feelings are like clouds
that appear on the empty sky. They do not deserve my attention because they are
not real, so I do not want to give them a reality they don't actually have.
Thoughts and feelings appear and
disappear naturally IF we allow them to disappear. But if we start judging
them, feeling regret about them and dislike them, then we help them become
greater and greater. This is how obsession grows. Obsessions are simple
thoughts and feelings that were given too much attention and were taken too
serious.
My way is to not take the evil
thoughts and feelings too serious, but leave them, let them come and go, not
focusing on them. Shinran Shonin made a wonderfully true statement when he said
that "the Nembutsu alone is true and
real" while everything else is a delusion. If the Nembutsu alone is
true and real why take seriously all the residual thoughts and garbage that
normally appears in my ignorant mind?
Namo Amida Bu