I recite in the middle of my
personal chaos and everybody in the Amidado (Amida Hall), recites in the middle
of his/her personal chaos. We do not transform this chaos into order or purity,
we don’t think at all to purity or negativity, we just recite and the sacred
sounds of sutras and Nembutsu come from Amida, carrying us, embracing us,
accepting us.
In Jodo Shinshu we leave everything to Amida Buddha, our bad
karma and our good karma. We do not rely on our good karma to attain Buddhahood
in the Pure Land and our bad karma does not count, only Amida is important.
Recitation reminds us of this, when no matter how we feel, we continue to
recite.
Also, our everyday life is sometimes good or bad, we chose
what we like and reject what we don’t like, but in the Amidado we don’t do
this. We follow only the Path, not our own likes and dislikes, not our own
opinions, but the Dharma.
Chanting in the middle of our chaotically mental states
reminds us that exactly in the middle of our everyday life with its ups and
downs, we follow the Nembutsu Path. We have to keep going in the middle of our
own chaos, we have to walk the white path in the middle of the river of fire
and water.
Shakyamuni urges us to go to the Pure Land, and Amida is
calling us. The path is here, in the middle of our misery, ignorance, blind
passions and personal difficulties. It is the path Amida has built for us. While
we recite the Name and feel our minds are disturbed by personal thoughts or
other problems, we just let them be as they are, and we continue to say.......
NA MO A MI DA BU, NA MO A MI DA BU, NA MOA MI DA BU.......