No matter where I go, or what I do, I remain the same.
Wether I am in my
room, a temple, or even in the presence of the relics of the Buddha[1], where I was today, I
remain the same.
I came to the
relics shrine with a distracted mind, I stayed there and paid homage with a
distracted mind and left home with the same distracted mind. I did this or
that, circumambulation, gassho, etc, but still my mind remained the same. When
I realized this, I stopped doing anything and remained sitting. Just
being there and saying Nembutsu was enough.
I was and always
am in the presence of Amida Buddha, so what else do I need doing? What does a
child needs to do in the presence of his father or mother? Nothing. Trully
nothing. He just stays there and feels accepted. No special thing is
required. Just sitting there I realized again that everything is ok.
My mind can never be at peace. Since the Buddha and me both know this simple truth, just sitting in His presence is enough.
Namo Amida Bu. The problem of my life and death are solved once and for all without me doing anything special.
[1] I wrote this short fragment after I attended an exhibition with the relics of the Buddha and various Buddhist sages.
Yeah, sometimes I worry if I do that, or that, or if I didn't manage to do my morning service, but then...Amida is there anyway, whatever I do.
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